Sweet Relapse

"Love given. Love gained"

It’s been very long since I’ve posted something

Indeed ambitions overrule every other deal

But today, something else did hit me straight in my atrium!!

It was you....

It was something similar to,
that first time,
that uneasiness, those butterflies,

Every moment seemed filled with sunshine,
It’s that reflection of mine, in your eyes

That awkwardness in every conversation
those thoughts which merged with my heart beat’s elation

That wait, and that chase,

And all those moments???????????????????

Those times I've felt breathless,
Every occasion which counted for pretty dresses,
I felt alive, my heart like some spastic drum roll
There seemed hope,
There seemed meaning, the ropes
Of my mind unchained, there seems to be
A feeling, which only I can comprehend.

And no matter how much I pretended.
I did look out for you every now and then!!

And when you weren't there, I pondered,
What it would be like to be with you,
Maybe there would be rain, maybe thunder,
And you'd catch me off guard, and our
Worlds that till now stood barred, would
Release, there would be this sort of uncomfortable
Ease.

I'd carry this ease on my mind
Whenever I'd find those broken parts
Of the past edging in to my life,
Despite them being over,
Those years of emptiness,
Those faded peonies,
Those lavenders which lost their smell

Or even those hours of here-now

When life seems off-beat,

I'd indulge in your pages
 
The first time of every time,
Those thoughts which merged with the mind’s elation,
Does away with all darkness,
And would lit my world with celebration!!

Happy to have found you.

Never do I inquire that what life would have been...hadn't my thumb stuck that day

Because now I know

If mine would have failed me

Yours would have anchored us anyways.......